....when your brain melts from disuse.
I am probably the most bored I've ever been in my whole life. In the beginning this whole foot surgery thing was like a vacation of sorts. I was able to get some much needed rest, take care of a physical issue that has been holding me back most of my life and catch up with friends and family.
But now, months later, I'm running out of things to do. I'm not particularly mentally stimulated right now. Its times like this I really, really wish I were in school. Or at least that it were easier to get involved in online courses. I would give anything to have to get up and do some kind of exciting critical thinking course or English paper. Maybe spend the day reading chapters of biology or history, brushing up on my Jin Dynasty or my Seven Years War.
I'm not kidding, I hate this stagnation. I would kill to be taking classes right now, not even to get my life in order but simply because I crave education.
I wonder if that makes me boring as a person. Like...I'm only bored because I'm boring? I have no idea. I really don't care. I just wish I have some sort of goals motivating me when I wake up.
This is why the last time I was getting surgery/healing from surgery, I was tickled when the college kids had me writing their papers.
I also find it amusing that I've never taken a college course in my life but I successfully wrote for college students what they were getting their grades based on.
~_~ Why can't I be one of those lucky people with a silver spoon, or at least the good fortune to have a wealthy benefactor? Or just enough luck to get the financial aid for schooling?
Why the blazes are there people out there getting educations for -nothing-, when I really vaule it and would do something with it?
*facepalm*
Saturday, September 24, 2011
Friday, September 23, 2011
Awesome SAUCE
For the record, I like Pandora's new look. There are complaints, but frankly I think it addresses a lot of the page issues, it's no longer a little boxy page in the corner of my self-indulgently large screen and you get LYRICS. No more searching janky websites for lyrics that are busted because they're written by people that never passed middle school English.
In other news, I've finished all of Dr. Who and all of Torchwood. If you love me....you'll buy it for me. I have nothing else to do but wait for new episodes now and I personally HATE waiting for television shows to produce. Its why I didn't start watching CSI like a new religion until after they packed six seasons on dvds. Not shitting you.
My snake refuses to eat his mice. The little shit is all shed-up and shiny. he's clean, the tank in humid and warm. Its an ideal environment and he is STILL picky. The stupid shop feeds live so we've got live mice sitting around. I hate live feeding. Hello, lets make them more aggressive. Dammit.
My chihuahua is giving me the most disparaging looks ever, now, because I'm making him wear a pink harness with butterflies on it. I would like to convey to him in dog-speak that if he didn't leave the yard to run in front of cars, he wouldn't need the damned thing. Anyone translate?
Also, talking to my grandfather again after nearly a decade of silence is...strangely relieving. It was weird getting money from him out of the blue, and I still feel kind of sick having taken it, but when you're being forced into a dark little hole of no income by your Nazi job, you don't have a lot of choice where you accept hand-outs from.
PS: Nothing cheers you up faster than 80's music. I find it funny Maneater plays for me every time I start it up. I'll take that as a compliment, thank you Pandora.
In other news, I've finished all of Dr. Who and all of Torchwood. If you love me....you'll buy it for me. I have nothing else to do but wait for new episodes now and I personally HATE waiting for television shows to produce. Its why I didn't start watching CSI like a new religion until after they packed six seasons on dvds. Not shitting you.
My snake refuses to eat his mice. The little shit is all shed-up and shiny. he's clean, the tank in humid and warm. Its an ideal environment and he is STILL picky. The stupid shop feeds live so we've got live mice sitting around. I hate live feeding. Hello, lets make them more aggressive. Dammit.
My chihuahua is giving me the most disparaging looks ever, now, because I'm making him wear a pink harness with butterflies on it. I would like to convey to him in dog-speak that if he didn't leave the yard to run in front of cars, he wouldn't need the damned thing. Anyone translate?
Also, talking to my grandfather again after nearly a decade of silence is...strangely relieving. It was weird getting money from him out of the blue, and I still feel kind of sick having taken it, but when you're being forced into a dark little hole of no income by your Nazi job, you don't have a lot of choice where you accept hand-outs from.
PS: Nothing cheers you up faster than 80's music. I find it funny Maneater plays for me every time I start it up. I'll take that as a compliment, thank you Pandora.
Saturday, September 3, 2011
Merci...
I want to tell my sister that a large part of why her relationship is failing is her fault, but her response will be screaming, cursing, rolling her eyes and a variety of other means of expressing that she's ignoring me and believe everything anyone else says is wrong because she knows all.
Her relationship is a series of arguments and ultimatums initiated by her, usually. Her boyfriend is not the type to start an argument. He definitely instigates when he should be more mature, but he's a 21 year old kid. He likes getting a rise out of people. He likes picking on his girlfriend and playing too much. He's at a point in his life where he's at his least intelligent and most reckless and irresponsible.
He only ever complains about her when she goes bat-shit and starts screaming at him, calling him a fucking idiot, a retarded piece of shit and other derogatory things that would have been the end of a relationship for me.
When she gets drunk she's a raging bitch to everyone and I find her practically impossible to tolerate, yet he still manages to tolerate her twice as long as the last person to drop out of the race.
He takes all of her shit and rolls with it better than most sane people would, but she seems entirely incapable of offering him the same. Everything he does makes her angry. They live together, he was working two jobs and they didn't get to hang out much but when he has free time he wants to shoot the breeze with his friends and play golf or Madden or what have you. She goes nuts because she feels he should be spending all of his free time with her, but she's attacking him for that free time on his first solid day off.
I understand it from her perspective, I really do. I do believe they should spend a little more time together. However were I in his position, I wouldn't -want- to spend much time with her because she turns into an insufferable bitch when things aren't going exactly as she wants. If he answers the phone when they're doing something or makes a joke at her expense or doesn't find a subject she's discussing 100% compelling she immediately goes off on him and starts calling him names or complaining about beef from weeks in the past.
One thing you never do is bring old shit to a new argument, but try telling her that.
She's impossible to explain anything to and never wants to see things from anyone's point of view but her own. She's totally unreasonable, so how do you reason with her and make her see that if the relationship fails, its her fault as much as anyone else's?
I don't want them to break up because they're two stupid kids. If they break up it ought to be for a legit reason, but what the hell does someone say to a kid that throws her cellphone when she's pissed, of a kid that laughs everything off and never takes anything half as seriously as they should?
Geez-oh-petes.
Her relationship is a series of arguments and ultimatums initiated by her, usually. Her boyfriend is not the type to start an argument. He definitely instigates when he should be more mature, but he's a 21 year old kid. He likes getting a rise out of people. He likes picking on his girlfriend and playing too much. He's at a point in his life where he's at his least intelligent and most reckless and irresponsible.
He only ever complains about her when she goes bat-shit and starts screaming at him, calling him a fucking idiot, a retarded piece of shit and other derogatory things that would have been the end of a relationship for me.
When she gets drunk she's a raging bitch to everyone and I find her practically impossible to tolerate, yet he still manages to tolerate her twice as long as the last person to drop out of the race.
He takes all of her shit and rolls with it better than most sane people would, but she seems entirely incapable of offering him the same. Everything he does makes her angry. They live together, he was working two jobs and they didn't get to hang out much but when he has free time he wants to shoot the breeze with his friends and play golf or Madden or what have you. She goes nuts because she feels he should be spending all of his free time with her, but she's attacking him for that free time on his first solid day off.
I understand it from her perspective, I really do. I do believe they should spend a little more time together. However were I in his position, I wouldn't -want- to spend much time with her because she turns into an insufferable bitch when things aren't going exactly as she wants. If he answers the phone when they're doing something or makes a joke at her expense or doesn't find a subject she's discussing 100% compelling she immediately goes off on him and starts calling him names or complaining about beef from weeks in the past.
One thing you never do is bring old shit to a new argument, but try telling her that.
She's impossible to explain anything to and never wants to see things from anyone's point of view but her own. She's totally unreasonable, so how do you reason with her and make her see that if the relationship fails, its her fault as much as anyone else's?
I don't want them to break up because they're two stupid kids. If they break up it ought to be for a legit reason, but what the hell does someone say to a kid that throws her cellphone when she's pissed, of a kid that laughs everything off and never takes anything half as seriously as they should?
Geez-oh-petes.
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