....when your brain melts from disuse.
I am probably the most bored I've ever been in my whole life. In the beginning this whole foot surgery thing was like a vacation of sorts. I was able to get some much needed rest, take care of a physical issue that has been holding me back most of my life and catch up with friends and family.
But now, months later, I'm running out of things to do. I'm not particularly mentally stimulated right now. Its times like this I really, really wish I were in school. Or at least that it were easier to get involved in online courses. I would give anything to have to get up and do some kind of exciting critical thinking course or English paper. Maybe spend the day reading chapters of biology or history, brushing up on my Jin Dynasty or my Seven Years War.
I'm not kidding, I hate this stagnation. I would kill to be taking classes right now, not even to get my life in order but simply because I crave education.
I wonder if that makes me boring as a person. Like...I'm only bored because I'm boring? I have no idea. I really don't care. I just wish I have some sort of goals motivating me when I wake up.
This is why the last time I was getting surgery/healing from surgery, I was tickled when the college kids had me writing their papers.
I also find it amusing that I've never taken a college course in my life but I successfully wrote for college students what they were getting their grades based on.
~_~ Why can't I be one of those lucky people with a silver spoon, or at least the good fortune to have a wealthy benefactor? Or just enough luck to get the financial aid for schooling?
Why the blazes are there people out there getting educations for -nothing-, when I really vaule it and would do something with it?
*facepalm*
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